Thursday, October 3, 2013
Hopefully i get over this little depression hump. Maybe I just need a girl day with my friends, or a starbucks date would be nice :)
Well in lighter news homecoming is in a week and I'm so uber excited. Being a senior this year I feel like this is my last chance to do anything so this year needs to be EPIC!!! I just wish my boyfriend would ask me in a cute or romantic way :/ bleh no guys ever do romantic stuff for me my guys are more nerdy than they are romantic :P oh well I guess. I'm not gonna complain I appreciate what my boyfriend and what he does do for me. :) He's pretty awesome and I'm lucky to have him.
Well counting down to homecoming. 9 days and counting :) maybe things will change before then.
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Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Monday, September 30, 2013
I went to school the next day and I honestly only remember two things from that day. Crying my eyes out in the locker room with my friends Kitty and Kaitlyn, thinking how miserable I was and how I just wanted to die, and I remember the very last period of the day.
Mind you I'm a good girl. I get good grades, go to school on time, and was in more AP classes than any 10th grader should be in, but most of all I had never ditched a class in my whole life. Well there was this guy and his name was David. He was in my PE class. I got to know him really well when I was going through my whore stage and I usually talked to him, but that day I had been avoiding him because I didn't want him to see me crying.
Well as I was walking to sixth period he saw me and stopped me. He asked me if I wanted to ditch class with him. I thought about it for a second and realized that it didn't matter if I ditched because I had already decided that when I got home I was gonna kill myself- Now now I know what you're thinking. "Really this stupid girl was gonna kill herself over a guy? Really?" But no I have a crappy life and it was an accumulation of a lot of stuff plus the whole thing with Jose just kinda pushed me over the edge.- so I agreed to ditch with David. We ended up just sitting on a bench talking. And I don't know why but ever since I'd met him he always made me nervous and it always seemed like I had to try my hardest not to be a total retard in front of him. We were casually talking and outta no where he kisses me. For a second I was frozen. A thousand things went through my mind. I didn't want another relationship! I hated guys! But his lips were so soft and he kissed me like we'd been together forever and he had that casual love for me.
My mind was working on hyper drive as well as my heart. Both shouting different ideas. But yet again I listened to my heart and leaned in for another kiss. There was something different about him and leaned in for another kiss. There was something different about him. As I kissed him I compared it to all the other kisses I'd had up to that moment.
My first kiss in my garage, that awkward kiss at the park with my very first boyfriend, under the starry sky with my best friends cousin at her quince and all the other awkward kisses I've had in my life. Yet none of those compared to this one. It was so urgent like if he was a solider going to war and I was his beloved wife he wouldn't see again for months. Yet at the same time it was so soft and passionate like I was his lover or soul mate. I could sit here and type every single adjective but not one of them would ever give that kiss justice. From that moment onward we were intertwined. Everyday we ditched sixth period and sat and talked or kissed. We started going to each others houses and on holidays we spent the whole day together. We ended up spending the whole summer together acting more like a couple than me or any of my past boyfriends had ever acted even though we weren't dating.
On August 20th, 2012 he finally asked me out after 4 months of us hanging out and ditching.
We have now been going out for more than a year and I haven't ever experienced being with a guy like him. We both have our individual problems but I think that honestly brings us closer. It's my senior year and I'm about to graduate and start college. I know that it's gonna be a hard but hopefully we've been together long enough and love each other enough to over come this trial.
well thats the end of my story :)
Lots of love XOXOX
Sunday, March 11, 2012
<3 so uhh peeps I uh no I havent blogged in awhile but its becuz I've been getting stuff ready for my sisters party<3 funnest night ever!!
I had a lot of fun if u no wat I mean ;D lol just playing!!! But honestly where's my best friend when I need to spill all these crazy emotions to someone :'( I guess it is kinda late tho... Oh well...
Well keep coming back for ur daily dose of Nickki's kisses <3
-love always, Nickki